Why me?

That was my question as I watched the news last night and learned of 21 christians beheaded by ISIS for their faith.

Why would the God of all creation want to be bothered by my needs for things like heat in the middle of an ice storm when there are individuals being martyred for their faith?  A sense of shame started to creep in that I had even had the audacity to ask for help.

The thoughts were barely finished when the red flag went up.  Shame does not come from my Heavenly Father, rather His Word tells me I am blameless, above reproach and before God in love (Eph 1:4).  Jesus has purchased that reality for me at great cost.  Everything I have learned about Father God, know about Him and continue to learn about Him tells me His desire is to interact intimately with every single life (Luke 12:7) and that He is more than enough to do exactly that (Job 42:2).  How utterly amazing You are Heavenly Father!!

What better tactic to separate us from the very One with whom we need to be continually interacting and co-laboring to release His kingdom of heaven on earth (Matt 6:10) than to cause us to withdraw out of a sense of shame.

Do not succumb to the bully’s tactic of putting a wedge between you and the very One who desires and can cause you to …

Arise, shine, for your light has broken through!
    The Eternal One’s brilliance has dawned upon you.
See truly; look carefully—darkness blankets the earth;
    people all over are cloaked in darkness.
But God will rise and shine on you;
    the Eternal’s bright glory will shine on you,
a light for all to see.
Isaiah 60:1-2 (The Voice)

Oh, and don’t let the “worthy” card mess you up either.  That’s just another enemy tactic because it’s not about being worthy.  It’s about God’s purpose in all of this … He’s done it all for His sake because He is soooooooo incredibly passionate about you and to have relationship with you.

So let’s get this clear:
it’s for My own sake that I save you.

        I am He who wipes the slate clean
and erases your wrongdoing.

        I will not call to mind your sins anymore.
Isaiah 43:25 (The Voice)

Nowhere in the bible can I find that if God supplies my needs, it takes away from His supply for anyone else.  He is infinite.  He has no beginning and no end.  There is always more of Him.  (John 1:1-5; Rev. 21:6)

Take heart.  Draw nigh to the Creator of all and co-labor with Him by praying His very Word back into this world to release heaven on earth. (Isaiah 55:11).  Ask and keep on asking!  (Matt 7:7).

So back to my original question “why me”?  Because my Heavenly Daddy says so!

All that "white stuff" is not snow.  It's 2 inches of slush that froze solid and was then covered by 1/2" of ice.

All that “white stuff” is not snow. It’s 2 inches of slush that froze solid and was then covered by 1/2″ of ice.

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Sign on the dotted line …

Have you ever asked someone “Do you believe me?”

How did they respond to you?

What was your response to their response?

I’m guessing if they doubted you, your response might have been hurt, anger or frustration with a little  “why don’t they respect me” in the mix.

Where am I going with this?

Every moment of every day our Heavenly Father is asking that very same question to you and to me “Do you believe me?”

Like Abraham – our Heavenly Father shows us what is impossible and tells us “this is what I have for you, do you believe me”.

  • continuous, uninterrupted fellowship with Him because of what Jesus did, not because of anything we did or will do (Rom 4:4-5)
  • our every need supplied according to his riches in glory (Phil 4:19)
  • being blameless, above reproach and before God in love (Eph 1:4) “just-as-if-I’d never sinned” (Rom 5:9)

From that place of absolutely no conflict or discord between each of us and our Heavenly Father we get to live every moment of every day.  That is our launch pad to co-labor with our Heavenly Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit to release the kingdom of heaven on earth (Matt 6:10) until this place is as wonderful as heaven.


By signing on the dotted line.

Faith is my signature and your signature on the contract ratified by the blood of Jesus.  It is an acceptance by both “parties” of sufficient payment for my “just-as-if-I’d-never-sinned” standing with my Heavenly Father.  I’d never seen that before this moment …. faith is my signature — agreeing with and appropriating the promises of the Father as true and as mine, fully paid for, irrevocable.

The terms have never changed, it was the same for Abraham as it is for you and me (Genesis 15:6; Romans 4:3).  Faith is our signature to take ownership and have put into our account what otherwise would be impossible for us to have.  Such a deal … such a reason to hope.

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The Joseph Effect

Does this scenario sound familiar?  You receive a prophetic word either from someone or through a dream of how God sees you or God’s plans for you then within a very short period of time thereafter, the exact opposite transpires in the natural.  (Aside: my understanding of prophecy are words that encourage, edify and comfort. 1 Corinthians 14:3)

That’s happened to me 3 times in the past few weeks.

I was having shall we say a “lively discussion” about this with my Heavenly Father to the tune of “what’s up with this” fueled by doubts such as did the person speaking to me hear correctly, did I interpret the dream correctly, did I mis-interpret what appeared to be circumstances aligning for God’s provision accompanied by disappointment in either my actions or the actions of others towards me that seemed diametrically opposed to the message I’d received.

With the caveat that this may be on the verge of TMI :), I share with you that one of Holy Spirit’s favorite times to speak to me is when I’m showering.  It’s like the natural of act of the water washing away the grime of the world and being completely exposed and authentic opens a connection in the spiritual realm for the same to occur.

As I toweled off after a shower, that is when I heard it “the Joseph effect”.   My profound response was “Huh”?  I heard it again “the Joseph effect” followed by seeing Joseph in the bottom of a pit, left to die by the very brothers he had recently seen in a dream bowing down to him.

Ohhhhh …. Joseph had a choice.  Give up on the 2 dreams God had given to Joseph of His plans for him or hold on to those dreams/promises through years of an up and down roller coaster ride to arrive at the dream’s fulfillment.

The phrase “nip it in the bud” just popped into my thoughts and with it the image of Barney Fife from the The Andy Griffith TV show.  When Barney didn’t want something to happen that was his response “Nip it, just nip it in the bud” before something ever had a chance to take root and transpire.

Barney Fife Nip It In The Bud

Hmmmmm …. sound like a possible game plan the enemy may have for you and me, joints heirs with Christ (Romans 8:17)?

We can choose to hope in the truth that God’s word contains within it the very power necessary to accomplish itself (Luke 1:28-38) accompanied by God’s faithfulness to complete the work He has started in you (Phil 1:6).  Or, we can capitulate to the enemy’s “nip it in the bud” scheme, i.e., the Joseph effect.

It’s a moment-to-moment, day-after-day choice that is before us … to hope or not to hope.  It is not for the faint of heart.

As we enter this New Year … I offer these 2 quotes to encourage you to choose to hope and turn “nip it in the bud” on the enemy himself:

This is what the Eternal One says,
the One who does the impossible,
the One who makes a path through the sea,
a smooth road through tumultuous waters,
The prophet appeals to a powerful memory: the exodus.
He reminds God’s people—all descendants of slaves in Egypt—
how God liberated them from oppression,
how God devastated the powerful army that pursued them
in order to take them back to the whip and lash, back to servitude in Egypt.
Stories of the exodus have been told time after time for many generations;
they are permanent fixtures in their minds.
The prophet evokes these amazing memories
to comfort them and assure them that what God is about to do
is like what God did do for their ancestors centuries ago.
Eternal One: Don’t revel only in the past,
or spend all your time recounting the victories of days gone by.
Watch closely: I am preparing something new;
it’s happening now, even as I speak,
and you’re about to see it.
I am preparing a way through the desert;
Waters will flow where there had been none.
Isaiah 43:16, 18-19 VOICE

Quoted from Bill Johnson’s teaching 8/18/13

“Nothing will be impossible with God.”
Nothing is two words.
No and the word thing is the word Rhema.
Rhema is a freshly spoken Word of God.
It is different than what is in print.
It is the voice.
It actually carries with it the implication that it is the voice of God that you hear.
So it says no freshly spoken word of God will be impossible.
The word impossible means: without ability.
So it can actually be translated like this:
No freshly spoken Word of God will ever come to you
that does not contain its own ability to perform itself.
The Word of God comes with ability.
It is the Word of God that carries ability.
It is the Word of God that carries divine capacity to perform itself.
Your part, my part is the tender heart,
it is the yieldedness, it’s the embracing, it’s the protecting
Mary modeled this beautifully.
The Mother of Jesus would ponder these things in her heart;
she would stop and meditate;
hover over; protect these words and guard these words that God had given to her
through the shepherds, through the wise-men etc.
She guarded them, she protected them, and savored them,
she went over them over and over again.
Because those were words that needed fulfillment
that she couldn’t bring about,
but she also didn’t want to miss her opportunity.”

Who is this Christmas Gift?

Hope Joy Peace.001In the quiet of early morning, sitting in the light of my Christmas tree I am so drawn to the wonder of the light shining out of the darkness.  For me it is what the composer, John Sullivan Dwight, of O Holy Night  wrote “a thrill of hope, the weary world rejoices for yonder breaks a new and glorious morn”.

That is what my heart experiences as I sit here …. HOPE … a light in the darkness of a very turbulent world right now.  It reminds me over and over and over there is a light that shines through the darkness that can never be quenched (John 1:4-5).  From this place I heard the Holy Spirit speak the Name of this wondrous light as given to us in Isaiah 9:6

For unto us a Child is born,
Unto us a Son is given;
And the government will be upon His shoulder.
And His name will be called
Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

I felt compelled to dig deeper into His Name and here is what I found in the Hebrew:

Wonderful –

wonder, marvel
hard to understand thing
wonder ( of God’s acts of judgment and redemption)
something wonderful, admirable, miracle of God
admirable, distinguished


to advise, consult, give counsel, counsel, purpose, devise, plan
one who consults for, i.e., cares for, protector
a mighty hero, soldier
strong man, brave man, mighty man


mighty hero
God with us
the strong among the mighty
The Everlasting
perpetuity, for ever, continuing future
ancient (of past time)
for ever (of future time)
of continuous existence
forever (of God’s existence)


a bringer up, a nourisher
bestowing his benefits like a parent

The Prince -

prince, ruler, leader, chief, chieftain, official, captain
chieftain, leader
vassal, noble, official (under king)
captain, general, commander (military)
chief, head, overseer (of other official classes)
heads, princes (of religious office)
elders (of representative leaders of people)
merchant-princes (of rank and dignity)
Ruler of rulers (of God)

Of Peace  — Hebrew Shalom

completeness, soundness, welfare, peace
completeness (in number)
safety, soundness (in body)
welfare, health, prosperity
peace, quiet, tranquillity, contentment
peace, friendship
of human relationships
with God especially in covenant relationship
peace (from war)

So who is this Christmas Gift ….

He is a wonder, a marvel, a hard to understand miracle of God that triggers within us admiration and wonder as we see revealed the essence of our Heavenly Father’s heart towards us in His choice to send His Son in order to extend His favor, love, mercy and kindness to each of us instead of judgment.  The One who cares for and protects each life as He counsels us with the purposes, devices and plans our Heavenly Father has for us to prosper us and not to harm us; to give each of us hope and a future.  He is a Hero able to fulfill the desire of every human heart to be loved and the desires of our Heavenly Father towards each of us.   He is a brave, steadfast soldier never forsaking us.  He is the strongest of the mighty.  There never has been or will be a time He does not exist nor will there ever be any one or thing greater than He.  As a loving parent gives to a cherished child, He nourishes and blesses all who will receive Him.  He is The Ruler of Rulers whose reign and presence provides completeness, soundness, welfare, peace, health, prosperity, quiet, tranquillity, and contentment to permeate every spirit, soul and body; our relationships with each other; and, our covenant with God.

No wonder the soul felt its worth at His coming!!

That is my wish for you this Christmas – for your soul to know its worth and to experience the thrill of hope.  Here’s my expression in song of that wish.  My thanks to my sweet husband for being my recording engineer.

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It’s literally been a month since I’ve posted.  The reason may seem strange to you … it certainly has felt that way to me.  It’s because I made an exchange with my Heavenly Father … I gave Him my thoughts … Continue reading

Bone and Marrow


The Voyager 1 Love Probe Crosses Last Frontier

My Heavenly Father is continuing my journey into space. To quote Captain Kirk … it is definitely a new frontier :) .

I have been totally “undone” by the truth that He wants to create space in me for rest that includes His taking action to cause me to cease from any movement or labor in order to recover and collect strength; to refresh me; to allow me to take rest; and to create quiet within me as He fills me with calm and patient expectation.  (Matthew 11:28)

Just when I think “I’ve got it now” another facet unfolds that creates even more space for Holy Spirit to reside within me, just as Jesus promised (John 14:16)

In my last post, I asked “do you listen when your heart speaks”.  I hope you do.  But what happens when what you hear seems so bone deep that it feels there is absolutely no way you can be any different than the way you have always been, always thought, always felt.

 That was my question as I was walking recently.  My Heavenly Father answered so quickly, I could almost see Him grinning like He was just waiting for me to ask!!

See, the Word of God is alive!
It is at work and is sharper than any double-edged sword —
it cuts right through to where soul meets spirit
and joints meet marrow,
and it is quick to judge the inner reflections and attitudes of the heart.
Hebrews 4:12 – Complete Jewish Bible

I’d never really seen it in such a personal way before.  His word can divide soul (will, intellect, emotion) and spirit (the very breath/life within us created to connect with and be filled by God’s own spirit, the Holy Spirit).  My personal dilemma at the time was what I mentioned in a previous post about not being wanted during my Mom’s pregnancy.  My inner reflections (thoughts), the attitudes of my heart [my choices (will) and emotions] had been so permeated with that experience that I could not recall a time it was not a part of me, definitely bone deep.  Yet God’s Word is so precise it can divide what feels like my very bones, from the marrow (what truly gives life to the bones).

I’m sharing the revelation with you the way it came to me as I walked and captured my conversation with my Heavenly Father on a voice memo on my iPhone.

“You can divide what feels so bone deep to me
and bring the life that You have always purposed.
You can take away my soulish* efforts
(*what my intellect, will and heart can accomplish stand alone)
and fill my soul and my spirit with everything that You have and purposed for me.
Just like marrow is where life comes from,
You can take away the bone, the structure that I have put around this wound
to make my own coping mechanism.
You can replace that structure with life
that grows from the very marrow of who You are
and transplant it into me so the two become one.**
The life that is contained grows new bone, i.e.,
new structure for me to live, move and have my being.***
Life is free to flow all because of Your Word.
Your Word who is Jesus.
It’s just so amazing Father.  It’s so amazing.
I am thankful, so thankful, for how utterly wonderful You are
and how great is Your love.”

Can you relate?  You think you have dealt with an issue in that has deeply impacted your life, e.g., having to perform to be loved; rejection; abuse; addiction; chronic illness that has made you doubt your self-worth; chronic heartache that causes you to withhold your heart from receiving the love that is around you, to name only a few.  Only to have the issue show up again with a slight differently facet or at a deeper level as life unfolds.  Being transparent, I’ve lost count of how many facets I’ve uncovered of not being wanted while in the womb.  It made me wonder can this ever not be a part of me; not be my filter for how I respond to life?  My heart needed to be that real with God so He could be that real with me.  What does your heart need to tell God?

“Continually unfolding the past till all is told.” (Psalm 32:5) is what I hear as I type this. You know what that tells me?  Neither you nor I are failing because more facets surface.  Our Heavenly Father is just not going to stop unfolding the past and setting me and you free until we are exactly that – completely free.  He unfolds rather than doing all the “demolition” at once so that we don’t implode or explode.  How loving is that!!

So I invite you to join me into this journey into space with Jesus dividing bone and marrow; the structures that we build to try to figure out our problems; to protect ourselves; to come up with answers with which we can live.  Grant our Heavenly Father permission to use His Word, Jesus, to cut the ties from the make-do structures we have devised and replace them with the life that He has for us so that we can we thrive and have that as our core.  Allow Him to transplant the same eternal life that filled Christ to be the very marrow of how we exist and thrive as He separates where joint meets marrow, i.e., where we have connected to things other than Him for our safety and supply.

It is a really interesting journey, an on-going journey filled with hope.  I pray you will make the choice to explore the space Jesus has for you!

** –  Romans 11:23-24
*** – Acts 17:28